clara "lipogrammatic" sparks @mxsparks@oulipo.social

… only 90s kids will know why saying “TrackPoint” is off-color

a thought, a fright, a plan, a bit of crying, a ton of support, a you-phoria, a woman: Clara.

aw, I did all this work organizing a big t&d party and now nobody’s coming 😞

it’s my body (and I’ll cry if I want to)

alphinaud / aym’ric / ‘stinian, just hugging and crying it out and slowly figuring out how to talk about it <3

ahhhh, back at casaSparks 🥰

(and no I am not pursuing facial cubicization now, thank you much)

it wasn’t so obvious as all that, naturally, but. hmm.

and think: a trans w?m?n sits down, pausing from thoughts of radically (and/or subtly) shaping hir “nontraditional” body into a communication of its own, and looks into a painting that’s working as a kind of mirror

today at MoMA, Picasso’s “girls of Avignon” was talking to yours truly, in a way it hadn’t on past visits. not in A Trans Way, but … not in an un-trans way?

think: a full-body portrait of 5 sax-working wxmyn—all drawn with “unusual” proportions, “nonstandard” draftsmanship, “striking” facial construction—but toward a goal of portraying a Truth about what kind of thing a human is.

visit #1 was good, Dr. Pang and his staff had good A’s to my Q’s and a solid path forward. looking at spring 2022, which is soon!!!

waiting room TV for visit #2 is playing an ad for “1-800-GOT-JUNK” #synchronicity

got TWO doctor visits today with a long post-noon lull, so I’ll just chill out and go to MoMA to look at Dada 😎

I’m hopping on a train to NYC tomorrow morning at butts o’clock, for a quick visit to consult a doctor about surgically improving my mortal form (nothing’s Wrong with it now, I just think this bodymod would suit how I’m living)

my logical brain: ok nothing bad is coming, this is just a chat, you can say hi to a pal on your way back, and tbh nobody is going to say “you suck, no [thing] for you”

my cardiac rhythm: 🎼 TRIP-A-LIT 2 3 4& 5, TRIP-A-LIT 2 3 4& 5

🥚 this is your brain
🍳 this is your brain on brain
🐣 any brains?

🎼
snow glows bright on mountain-top
not a living soul in sight
a kingdom of isolation
and I’m its only knight

or to golf away z:

for(x=y=0; x<++y; x=y);

ohhh this has a bad bug. to fix it:

for (x=0, y=1, z=y; x<y; x=y, y+=z);