mx. sparks (lipogrammatic) @mxsparks@oulipo.social

… only 90s kids will know why saying “TrackPoint” is off-color

a thought, a fright, a plan, a bit of crying, a ton of support, a you-phoria, a woman: Clara.

All I know about poky-mans, I’m picking up from my AR app. I got no poky-man gaming (or poky-man TV watching) history apart from that!

woohoo! yr gal is officially a Mx. Sci. in sand-brain-making

you got two wolfs in you

but which wolf you gonna hand out food to?

TIL @rjl20 runs this instantiation and not @ojahnn as I thought. (Why did I think that, though???)

tiny brain: “crying”
galaxy brain: “soup-visag’d”

a thought, a fright, a plan, a bit of crying, a ton of support, a you-phoria, a woman: Clara.

… only 90s kids will know why saying “TrackPoint” is off-color

so I’m figuring out ways of thinking about my body, and it's taking my brain down an odd path with naming-of-parts. not a *bad* path, mind you, but… odd.

mostly whilst doing NSFW stuff: do I call it my [Richard]? my [TrackPoint]?? what do I *want* it to signify???

but I think it’s… both, tbh, as with that old b&w drawing of a duck-rabbit: so what if I top with my [barn fowl] on Friday, but hold a wand against my [rowing man] on Monday? I am multitudinous!

💜♡💚 ➕ 💛♡💜🖤

ugh, I’m drinking too small a quantity of soup ... should go back to having a flask of it on my nightstand

And if this is just who and what I am, am I lying by acting as if “transition” is a thing that I did, a thing I *could* do?

I thought I had Cask-of-Amontillado’d that part of who I am into oblivion. I had put so much work into starving it out. But no. It’s not as dominant as it was, but I’m afraid that it’s still just as strong.

And ... if so, am I lying by acting as if I’m not a hazard?

Last night I got a post from California saying “no” to updating an old doc from my natal nym to Clara. Again. I had thought it was an “ok,” and a good copy of my doc, but ... no.

I am asham’d of how I took it at first: banging on a tabl’, shouting “you FUCKING KIDDING?” at full blast (and in my Man Vox too), and badly scaring DrSparks who was a room away.

Think of a world, a world akin to your own. But a world in which your writing’s most-common glyph is missing. Not just taboo, mind you — in this domain, it simply has no glyph-hood at all.

Nightmarish, you say? No. Only ... [dramatic zoom] ... a Twilight Oulipo.

[scary music] [cut to logo]

I might publish my first two works as Clara in 2019, just as I finish my M.S. (which I think I ought to start calling my Ms. ...)

Work #1 is forthcoming in a random no-impact journal of Jungian psychology, lambasting it for publishing transphobic propaganda, but work #2 would actually fall within my major — my fast-math-circuits prof this fall said my classwork was so good that I should submit it to a conf!

gosh I am so gay for DrSparks